why? i try so hard but i dont get anywhere if i do it is a bad place . i just wanna find love but is that so hard . i want a guy who will loveme for who i am not what i am not . i want him to come up behind behind and surprises me . i dont want him to cheat or lie to me . i been hurt so many times i dont have a heart anymore. im so lonely no one notices. no one has gone threw what im going threw . so it is hard to find help and i dont want to go to anyone because im afraid that they make fun of me and tell me to grow up. no one understand me expect me and my papal . but he is gone forever im just waiting for the pefect guy to come up to me and say i am here for and always will be and mean it to and treat me like no other .well i hope he comes soon becuase i dont know how longer i can take of this pain .

how i feel right now
Current mood: lonely


how i feel nobody knows , nobody has ever felt what i have felt . no one can help me . im not a nightmare . u see what u wanna see about me , it is hard to find love for me .if they do it wont last .all guys fail my test . I dont think no one will ever pass it .if they cant handle me at my worse then they dont desereve me at all .im empty inside . i keep wishing for the right one to come . when i see couples around me holding hands and laughing and kissing . i try not to cry . i always wished i had suttin like it . but i never have that . Im sadder than a emo person . i wished i had wat the other gurls have like looks,be skinny , personility, the clothes .to do wat ever i want without getting in trouble . everytime i wake up in the morining i think will i find true love today or will i get rejected as usally . stay tuned for part too...........

the guy i want is tall, strong ,restpectful,smart, does everything for his gurl , gives her his jacket when she is cold , and kisses u in front of people, not afraid to tell people that she is ur gusl .who kisses u in the rain , calls u in the middle of the day just to say that he loves , buys u roses for valentines or any holiday or just because it is monday . stands up for his gurl . coesnt wanna get u off the phone wit u . doesnt wanna let go of her . go anywhere for her , listens to wat she has to say and help her her figure out wat she is going threw,sneaks up behind her and grabs her waist and surprise wit a kiss . writes her love notes . leaves her love comments on her myspace . comments her pics saying that she is beatiful not hot or sexy but beatiful. when he kisses her grabs her necks nuttin else , when she is mad at u he tells he loves u and he doesnt wanna lose her . doesnt tel anyone about their bussiness . always making sure she is okay . when she comes to u cry he shouold say whos butt am i kicking baby. the guy who will give u his shirt to u because he wants u to wear it and when he gets it back it will smell like me . i hope i find this guy because i dont wanna be lonely my whole life . the guy i want please hurry . i know that im asking alot but it is so worth it but please hurry .....

before it is to late ..................

hi my name is lilangel im new at skyrock im from florida i dont add poser or anyone that i dont know . my favorite singers are evenessece and chris daughtry. the music that i listen to is rock country hip hop, r&b, and rap but mostly rock and country im not a prep im the redneck kind im not afriad of anything i like to go mudding and ride four wheelers . my favorite time of the year is fall . my favorite holiday would be christmas . i have a sister her nick name is lildevil i have my mom and dad were all just a happy family in florida . anf i have 2 dog named daisy mae and rocky daisy mae is a basset hound and rocky is a full blood rot roller and i have one cat named specail lol . well that wrappes it up for me if u need to talk to me all u have to do is write me or leave me a comment